Knight

So we had a good trip to City Museum tongiht. Knight and I left early so I could be home in time for my curfew, then the rest of the group met us there later. Several of the people were C.M. first timers, so it was cool to see the wonder on their face. Everytime I go I discover something new. It was interesting since it was the first "date" between knight and I.

We've known each other for like 10 years, and even tried dating when we were younger, but well it just didn't work out. Anyways, about the same time that gg broke up with me his girlfriend broke up with him. We started talking and hanging out some, and well... it seemed like a good idea.

Knight is a good guy. He refers to my parents as Mr. and Mrs. He is a strong Christian. He was homeschooled. He is going to law school next year. He's cute enough. We think the same way about a lot of things. He is a smart choice.

What do you do?

I care about my friends. I know a lot of people, but don't have very many close friends. I've had some go and do things which I could see were destructive, but beyond giving the occasional advice or being there to help pick up the pieces, I can't do much about it.
Once I had a conversation with someone who lost sleep because of a friend, who was in trouble. I couldn't understand it. Until now. Its hard when you see those you love hurting. I wish I could pass on my "Pollyanna perspective" on life. I care about people even when they don't want me to. Its who I am and what I do.

Things I've learned (in relationships)

What is wasted time? What would make a previous relationship worthless? I don't know. What I do know is that I have learned different things from different people.

• I've learned that at 16 you don't know anything.


• I've learned that it is okay to date, for the fun of dating when you are too young to get married. You have to know that is what you are doing when approaching it or else it turns into a big mess.


• I've learned that while Mom doesn't have to love him, the same way I might, her opinion counts.


• I've learned that committment is a good thing, but only when its to a good person.


• I've learned that no matter how much I want something it can't be forced.


• I've learned that I can deal with more stuff than I thought, and sometimes it is worth the stress.


• I've learned that I don't always have to be so independant; there is nothing wrong with letting the guy do things for me. This was a hard one.


• I've learned that just because someone is nice, it doesn't mean they are good.


• I've learned that I have to let go of things when they are not right, even if I don't want to.


• I've learned that I need to make a guys respect me more. That there is some value to standing up for myself even when it does cause conflict (and I hate conflict).


• I've learned that you can love someone and still not be with them, and it is for the best that way.

There are many other things still left for me to figure out, but I'm at a point where I've been thinking a lot about things. Right now there is so much that is unsettled. Writing it out helps.

Kids

Kids. now? later? never?

God commands us to have them, to keep the human race going. First command He gives Adam, but they sure can make things complicated. Just the idea of them, makes relationships hard. Its just one more thing to figure out.

The Goose

I do not like Canadian geese. They are mean; they are dirty; you don't get to eat them. What's the point?

We have a goose couple that decided on of the little islands in our parking lot would be a good place to make a nest. The mama goose has been sitting on her eggs for almost two weeks now. Everyday in my office people have to look out the window and check on her. Her husband goose takes good care of her, bringing her food, and protecting her. Its sad how many of us woman wish we could find a man as good as that husband goose.

Now to explain my dislike of geese. When I was 11 years old, my parents had to sign some paperwork to buy our house. It was boring so my mom and I were waiting in the car for my dad to finish up. There was this big field that looked like a good place to do some cartwheels and run around. I saw a big goose so I ran towards it to scare it off, but instead of running away from me it ran towards me. I was so scared I started running back to the van, but before I could get there this goose jumped up and placed both of its feet on my back and knocked me down. Never has my mother seen me move so fast, I was like the flash, I was back in that van before she could even get the door open.

My own comic strip

So there is this webside called woot.com where basically every day they offer a different product. What sets this one apart is they usually offer a discription of the product that is less than flattering, but its quite entertaing. They also have a daily podcast where you get to hear a two minute song about whatever they're selling and a contest every weekend. This weeked I posted on the message board, because it was a contest that caught my attention. Then I got made fun of in comic strip form. It a good think I can laugh at myself.

Uncertainty

What should you do when your brain and your heart are telling you to do two different things?